Sometimes you just have to give up on something when you start to realise you are never going to get it, you’re best isn’t good enough no matter how hard you try, sometimes you just have to let it go even though its what you’ve always wanted and will still continue to want. You’ve just got to hide it all, push it down, pretend. As much as that kills you, hurts you, makes you feel as though you cant breathe, and you feel like you’re sinking, you’ve got to let it go or just pretend. It’s not for my best or my happiness, because that’s not there without you. Its for yours.